I find my thoughts distrubing...

I have found my actions in the past two years very disturbing. It seems that my adolescence period came to an abrupt halt as soon as I read two non-fiction books explaining the behind-the-scenes actions in international events. I find myself becoming more and more obsessed with politics as well as its darker side. Even my dreams are not safe from these disturbances. I once dreamt of helping *someone* become a person of power so I can use h** as a puppet to do my bidding as well as a scapegoat when things go wrong.

I am without a moral compass. I bet if you give me enough money, I could either kill for you or help you get a spouse.

Thankfully, there are still some who help retain my innocence...

but for how long?